The last time I had a hug was when my friend left for college in August. Even then, it was just a quick embrace that friends give each other. Hugging makes me feel so uncomfortable. My mom and dad used to hug me, but I pulled away, so they haven tried in a long time. I know I sound silly, but I don like being touched. My friends will ask why occasionally, but I shrug. I can tell them the truth. I can tell them that when I was 11, I was raped, and from that moment I haven been able to accept affection from people. Believe me, I want it so bad I could cry. In fact, Im crying right now, but I just don know how to let people hold me like that. Especially the ones I love. It was nine years ago that it happened, and although he still haunts my dreams, Im not going to let him ruin my life anymore.